Spiraling Down the Abyss

I looked up and saw the sky unfolding it's magnificence! Felt like a speck of dust, diffusing into oblivion.... into nothingness, into eternity. 

Life is similar to a blank canvass... waiting for the painter's next brush of inspiration, etching a moment of revelation. While searching for answers, I am spiraling down the abyss of truth....

Free falling into the never ending void.... Trying hard to find a way out... to find the realness... to find the 'hidden' purpose.

While free falling, I had many interesting encounters.... People and incidents who have molded my thoughts and vision.... I learnt from their personal experiences....

Their struggles, will to break free and live life on their own terms... They evolved to become legends and rising hope for millions out there who strive to make something meaningful out of their life...

I learnt from my own experiences as well.... Have done my share of mistakes... Few incidents shook my belief and soul...

Yet, I stood up again and learnt not to flinch in the face of adversity.... Am still learning how to live my life sans the rules and diktats of our dysfunctional society...

In this voyage, I stumbled across individuals who were somehow different from the 'pre-defined' meager existence... The courage in their soul, the faith in their conviction and the burning passion to live by their own rules....

I learnt the essence of humility, love, sacrifice, and integrity from them...

Every person who I encountered while walking the path of life, left an imprint on my mind and soul.... I don't even remember some of their names or faces but still... They taught me what you may perceive as inconsequential values....

Just the sight of a smiling child can uplift your spirits....You forget your woes and troubles.... You believe once again that world is not a bad place after all.

I have lived a life worth living.... With all the mistakes, troubled times and joyful spurts, I will not trade this wonderful revelation with anything else....

                                                            I am the master of my fate 
                                                            I am the captain of my soul

Sweet Nothingness!

Heard something beautiful yesterday! It was a pure bliss to hear the haunting  strains... So simple yet magnificent.... Almost forgot about the song's existence. Yet, somehow the tune came back rushing to my mind. 

Reminded me of the "essence" of life... The realization that how small we are in the world, yet we are worth something... That we are special and not special at the same time.... 

That the loss of magnificence is somehow beautiful and surreal... It's not disheartening..... It's awakening of the soul. 

Imagine when you stand in front of the glorious peaks of a mountain or face the everlasting, unfathomable ocean? You feel humble and alive.... As if the life 'force' has infused warmth in your soul..... 

You understand and accept the simple truth - you are not the center of the universe. This very thought makes you wonder at the beauty and magnificence of creation.  

While listening, I realized that life is not so hard. It's all about letting go of your old wounds and woes...  You might fall and stumble, think it's not worth it, give up hope.... 

But remember that it is not the end... Nothing, no event or person, can ever break your spirit... It may sound cliche', but you can always see light at the end of the tunnel.... It's never too late! 

Have a little bit of hope and patience, that's all.

Panchi Hoon, Udne Do!

It's been a while i wrote something for myself.... Finished my work at office. Idle time and mind!Listening to the haunting strains of 'Panchi' by Jal.... Recollecting all the 'dust-laden' memories from my college days! 

The year was 2004. Had ample time to pursue my passion - music. Started a beautiful journey of discovering music bands from Pakistan....

Stumbled across a band called Jal. Never heard of them before. Discovered the most amazing fact - their music reflected my chain of thoughts! 

Fell in love with their simple style - evocative lyrics accompanied by haunting strains of guitar. Left an imprint on my mind....

Panchi, one of their early numbers, still remains one of my favorite tracks.... 

A beautiful composition with lyrics signifying the wish to 'break free from the mold'..... the background drum beats n guitar strains perfectly complement the singer's raw voice....

Panchhi hun,

Udne do ... Udne do
Hawawoon se
Ladne do ...

Raaste, galiyan chhod aaya main
Foolein, baagein tod chala main

Yeh raat abhi dhal jaayegi
Yeh baat abhi badal jayyegi

Tanha hun,
Rehne do ... rehne do
Asoon hun,
Behne do ... behne do

Panchhi hun,
Hmm hmm ... Hmm hmm 
Hawawoon se
Ladne do ...

Wish that the band's original members could have remained together... But Aatif Aslam, the lead vocalist, turned to greener pastures - fame and glitz of Bollywood. 

They still make their music, although i think they lost their rawness... Not their fault!

I did discover one of the most brilliant bunch of musicians who were telling their experiences... something different from the regular fare. Am still moved by their music! 

Hope they reunite to re-create the raw magic once again!

Am lost in translation!

Am lost in translation! Rapture, ecstasy, happiness, joy, wholesomeness, contentment, belongingness – feelings associated with love! Love really makes the world go around! 

Understanding the potent feeling of love is difficult. Is it for real or make-believe?
 

Sometimes confusing, sometimes delusional. It has its ups and down. 

Sometimes you are flying, soaring high and in the next moment you are crashing down into the hard ground! 

The momentum is mind boggling. 

Yet the experience of falling in love is quite enriching. Your heart expands with desires and affection. 

You undergo a complete transformation- body, mind, and soul are intertwined to form a spectre of hope and longing! 

You become a different individual!

Love is unexplainable. You have to experience it yourself to feel its vibrancy within your heart and soul. Confluence of emotions.  Gosh, it’s ethereal. Simple yet complex. It is a beautiful expression. 

A supreme creation which is hard to explain!

Just a random thought!

Often a thought pops into my head.... again n again... Goes through the same old rigarmole.... Are we doing what we really aspire for? Are we being true to ourselves? Or are we simply lost in a haze of delusion? In the end, are we still 'alive'? 

While growing up, we dreamt of inconsequential aspects... These don't really matter anymore as we stride into the second stage of our life - adulthood... 

We tend to be more practical and rational in our thoughts... 

But sometimes i wish i could turn back the time... Go back to those good old days of innocence and sweet idleness... We hardly find time for ourselves in today's competitive world... 

Feel like pressing the 'reverse' button and go into the 'child' mode... Sweet nothingness! A heavenly feeling...

But then, it is not possible! Wake up to the harsh reality.... Whooosh! Pop goes the sweet nothingness.... Open up to the cruel world of masscares, political debacles, greed, hatred... Humanity goes for a complete toss!!! Hard to find any charm but optimism still thrives in my heart.... 

Trying to keep the hope alive that innocence, honesty and simplicity are not mere namesakes... They still hold a relevance in this place called earth... Man, i feel exuberant and humble at the same time....

To see a child's smiling face, listen to the birds sweet chirping, watching clouds forming different shapes over my head... I feel at peace and serene... A part of the nature... 

The symbiotic co-exisistence which we humans are blindly destroying... Ignorance is not a bliss in this aspect...  Still, somewhere in the corner of my heart, optimism is still alive...

As told by Christopher McCandless (Alexander Supertramp), Into the Wild "The freedom and simple beauty is too good to pass up..."